I haven’t written for the past 2 weeks or so.
1. “Run down”. Since turning about 36-37 weeks I’ve definitely felt a change. I still sleep quite well through the night, but because Elijah’s head has dropped down into my pelvis I do feel he is heavier, and of course he is because he has grown. dohh. I get those famous “ligamentous pains” “down there” and in bed when I turn to the left or right. Yeah, I certainly don’t wake up in the morning and forget I am pregnant any longer.( At 34 weeks I still had thoughts of “I can’t believe I am pregnant” ) After breakfast, I feel like going to bed and I do to read. Between reading I lapse into a cycle of wake/dream/wake/dream. Then it’s time for lunch and some Cook and the Chef / The View. I go back to bed after that to redo the dream-wakefulness cycle. After a couple of hours it’s time to do something productive like laundering or getting dinner ready. I miss being more energetic…
2. “More appointments”. More appointments with the obstetrician and I had to see an endocrinologist about my thyroid blood levels. Nothing serious – just needs a postpartum blood check again. This particular endocrinologist happens to be my cousin-in-law’s boss so during the consultation we talked more about social stuff rather than my gland! Apparently there’s this Chinese restaurant called Yangtze which makes a good crab dish. Mmmm… perhaps we’ll go for some postpartum celebrations. 
The thing with doctor’s appointments are, they don’t take long but for me they do nowadays. It’s becomes the “highlight” of my day – I am at the apposite side of the table now. You see for me I want to make sure I don’t smell when I see the doctor because you really don’t know when he/she might like to have a look any orifice. ANY, even when you are not pregnant. You don’t know how many times I’ve had to hold my breath because, because, because! a patient did not bother to at least brush their teeth or have a mint and wash up. So to save myself embarassment I’d take some extra minutes doing it. Of course there are those who just don’t care. And I feel I ( BIG “I” ) am embarassed when the next patient comes into my consultation room. (Smells don’t magically disappear when the patient leaves, and it’s worse if I try to cover with a room deodorant!)
Of course, if you came in because of an “emergency”, I’d forgive you. Really.
2. “Irk”. I felt and still feel irked with a family member. Because I still feel it I sometimes replay this in my mind and it conjures up these feelings again. Grrr.. maybe it’s time to see a shrink.
3. “Tigress”. I woke up one day and noticed stretch marks on my abdomen. This was about 37 weeks. Man, I thought I could get away with it being close to my due date. So wrong. Okay it’s really not that bad compared to the ones I’ve seen on some patients. However, once you get stretchmarks because it involves the deeper dermis skin layer it is your BFF and yes, yes it gets lighter and I am no model so who cares… and it’s not my fault and a lot to do with genetics blah blah.. but I still want beautiful skin right especially when this part of the body is one of the easier ones to take care. I am over it but it took me about 2 weeks. Hmmph.
3. I am involved in this prosecution case ( not towards me thank goodness ) which is completely okay by me when I look at it objectively. But I get slightly stressed and am a disgruntled person as (1) I am not currently working, pregnant and nearly there and it takes my time away from my urm.. sleep (2) I have to give an official written statement to the police (sounds easy but it takes time to edit and proofread as as I discovered as it is a legal document (3) I may have to appear in court because the defence team disagrees on the our ( a few doctors ) statements. What?! Isn’t the case straightforward enough. Sheesh. And I’ll be 39 weeks if they want me to appear.
I read somewhere that if the mother to be is going through a stressful time, the baby will not come because he/she knows it’s not a secure time to come out. That’s why ( only presumption ) many a time waters break in the early hours of the morning when mum is relaxed -I haven’t heard waters break when mum is shopping – probably too excited spending money at the sales.
GRRR…I am going to sue the defence team if I am overdue, have to be induced and end up with an episiotomy and forceps/LSCS!! I am woman..hear me ROAR especially that at 41 weeks I expect to be more “tigres-sy” on the abdomen.
See why I haven’t written in 2 weeks?
